Passing the Torch?
When the girls were little, bundling up in snowsuits, boots, hats, scarves, and gloves/mittens, piling in the truck, and going to visit Grampy and Grammy. Gary would fire up the tractor and clean out the drive, the paths to the barns, and to the pasture to make feeding the cows easier. Once in a while Grampy would come out and stomp through the snow and 'help' in some way. But mostly the work was done by Gary with me helping with the shovel on the steps and the sidewalk. The girls would play in the snow, both along the sidewalk and in the big yard in front of the machine shed. Eventually everyone would be cold but happy, and we would congregate around the kitchen table and enjoy something warm to drink and usually some kind of snack, like cookies. Lots of great memories from those days.
This morning I was sitting in the recliner, watching Jim's sermon from the online church service. I heard sounds like motors running. Upon investigation I found Blaine on the 4-wheeler, moving snow in front of the garage and along the circle drive. Then I spotted two smaller people in snowsuits, jackets, hats and gloves running along the side of the kitchen/dining room. When I returned to the living room and looked out the patio doors, I saw a small snowman and Hilary waving at me through the doors. Soon she plopped on the ground, moving her arms and legs to make a snow angel. You know what happened next---Tessa on the ground and then Owen joined them to make more snow angels.
Scraping sounds coming from the deck made me return to the dining room windows and I found Landon shoveling snow from the deck and tossing it into the flower beds. Hilary joined him soon after to clean off the deck and steps. Soon the three kids were eating snow and throwing snowballs with snow scooped up in the gazebo.
Eventually sleds appeared and the kids were slipping down the hill from the front yard to the lane and continuing down to the creek. What fun!
After they left I saw the truck and trailer pull up in front of Sid's house down the road. I found out later that he had driven there on the 4-wheeler to plow out the drive, then they stopped to shovel off the ramp to his front door and the area around the bottom of the ramp. He wasn't home so they hoped he was surprised when he returned.
While I was so thankful that they were here to clean everything off and open up the lane (and it looks like there is a great path down the lane to the road), and I am super proud of their service hearts for others, part of me is just sad.
First of all I was so scared that Gary would be awake before me this morning and leave the bedroom without my knowing it and I would find him on the ground because he had had a heart attack while shoveling snow. Now that he is 70 and has had a few health issues, that fear is always in the back of my mind, but even moreso with the heavy wet snow on the ground. I know that he doesn't like my fussing over him about things like this (suggesting help with putting the huge wreath on the barn met with his anger at me for even thinking he might not be capable of doing that task himself). But I am concerned.
Second I had no desire to be outside in the cold and doing those things. Being in the house where it is warm and cozy and looking out the windows at the snow is more my thing now. But as I thought about years past it did make me a little sad that those days are over and I won't be playing with the girls in the snow anymore. Yes...I could with the kiddos, but I know I wouldn't enjoy it like I did 25-30 years ago.
I guess we are passing the torch from being the ones who take care of snow removal for the parents/grandparents to being the ones taken care of. It's not really a bad thing, is it?
But it is a little sad.







