Just Can't Get Motivated Today!

Just not happening today!

I'm not sure whether it was because I tossed and turned all night.

It could be because I didn't go to the Fitness Center this morning as planned.

It could be because I was just tired and felt listless.

It could be because I felt like I was trapped at home today because the tags for our license plates didn't come in the mail so our plates were expired. (except for the new Escape)

Not sure why...but today was just a waste for me. 

Cross it off the calendar and mark it wasted.

Owen was here this morning, and we played in the family room.  He was building a garage for his school bus out of Lincoln Logs with Papaw.  He was so cute, and he looked SO tall.  He was chattering the entire time.

Since we had roast beef for dinner last night and some was left over, I shredded it and added it to a mix of cream of mushroom soup and a cup of beef bouillon, the put it on top of noodles and mashed potatoes.  It was really good---but I ate by myself.

I made enough that we could have fed all of us if Blaine and Hilary and the kids had been here.  But Hilary called and said she and Tessa were going to the nail salon for manicures, then to lunch, and even though they invited me, I didn't want to go.  Why?  I had an appointment for next week with Tina, and besides that...the car license plates were expired and I didn't want to take the new Escape in.

Then Blaine asked Gary to go fishing with him and the boys today...so off they went before eating any lunch.  I offered to send along Lunchables with the four of them, but they declined so they went without much food and no drinks at all.  Well, Gary did take a bottle of DIet Pepsi and an apple, but Owen ate it.

So..I was alone for lunch---and it was good.  All of the leftovers went into the fridge, I cleaned up the kitchen, and I started the dishwasher. 

Sitting on the couch in the family room, I was watching GSN, Soon I was nodding off, probably as a result of the tossing and turning from the night before.  

When Gary came home, he suggested going out for something to eat, but I declined that invitation too.  Just didn't feel like changing my clothes and going out to eat somewhere.  After all, we had plenty of beef and noodles.

So here I am again, sitting on the couch.  The kids were here earlier and we painted cookies that Karen Swygart had sent us.  That was fun.  But I just can't get motivated to do anything else.  

There is a tub upstairs that Gary brought in of clothes, the winter variety, for me to go through and sort out.  Maybe that is it.  Maybe I am tired of going through boxes and tubs and sorting through the remainders of the things we moved from the other house that have been stored in the garage.  Maybe I am frustrated because I don't want the house, the cabinets, the drawers to be stuffed full of things that I can't bear to part with, some because of sentimental value, some because I just might need or use them again. Even though it was been over two years now that we cleaned out Mom's house and a year since we finished with Leo and Agnes' house and last fall we basically finished with our house, there is still that lingering feeling of just wanting it all to be done and not to ever fo it again. 

That could be it.

Plus the daily devotions this week have been on forgiveness and forgetting transgressions against one, and that has been on my mind, even though I am trying hard for it NOT to be.

I think back to the past few weeks and the Psalm 23 Bible Study that just ended.  Goodness and mercy are to follow me all the days of my life.  Jennifer, in her last video, stressed that every day we should find something good and focus on it. 

So the good today?  Owen was here and playing well with the LIncoln Logs.

Karen sent cookies to paint, and the kids really enjoyed doing that and then eating them.

We have plenty of food, and we don't need to go to a restaurant for a meal when we have food at home.

We are fortunate that the girls live so close to us, that they can stop by just for a few minutes or for a longer stretch of time.

I love our new house. I really like it and I feel comfortable here.  I do not miss the old house at all.  I am glad we moved, and I am very thankful that everything worked out for us to move into THIS house.

Even though I can't get myself motivated, I guess it has been a good day. Maybe I needed a day off to just rest and relax, take a nap, and watch some tv.