Prayer Journal #10

 Today's devotion was titled "God's Reward" and it was about how God handles situations and people that we struggle with. He rewards those who are faithful.  I hope I fall into that category!

The prayer today is this:

"Father, I am encouraged to realize that You bring rewards in our lives, and I am waiting for mine.  Keep me strong, trusting in Your perfect timing.  While I wait, let me serve You with all of my heart.  In Jesus' name.  Amen."

One of the things mentioned that God asks us to do is forgive our enemies.  I don't really have enemies to forgive right now, but I do still struggle a little with forgiving my mother for all of the mean words she said, all of them hurtful actions she did to us, and the many times she belittled and mocked me.   I know in my head that forgiveness is more for me than for her.  I know that if I told her I forgave her that she would attack me again by saying that I had a lot of nerve for saying that she needed  to be forgiven when it was me who had done so many hurtful and bad things all of my life.  I would be the one who needed to ask HER to forgive ME for all of the hurt I had caused her.  

All I can do now is to remain faithful to God and believe and trust in Him.  I will try hard to serve Him and do as He wants me to.  I pray that I can do that.