Sometimes It Just Doesn't Come Out Right

Sometimes I say something and instantly regret it because it came out differently than what I intended.

It doesn't happen very often.  I try hard not to say something that might be hurtful to a listener.

But sometimes it just happens.

I try hard.  I really do. I try to choose my words carefully.  I try to say what I mean without any types of hidden meanings that might be interpreted differently than what I meant.

But sometimes it happens.

And when it does, I know my words have hurt, even though the thoughts in my mind weren't hurtful.  
It just didn't come out right.

I taught junior high, high school, and college classes for 43 years total.  

I gave in-service presentations to other teachers in other schools.

I chaired committees where I had to speak in front of people including my committee.

I announced senior nights and starting line-ups.

When I was in front of people, other than my students, I always wrote the script because I was always afraid of saying something wrong and hurting someone or making myself look silly and stupid in the process.

With my students I tried to plan what I was saying, but sometimes student questions and circumstances in the classroom necessitated impromptu responses.  Still I tried not to be hurtful and not to say the wrong thing.

I always tried to plan what I said, watch my words, and tried not to hurt anyone with what I said.

But sometimes it just doesn't come out right.

When it happens, and the person hurt is someone you love with all your heart, the pain is intense and the heart breaks,

I never would hurt someone intentionally, especially someone I love.

But sometimes it just  doesn't come out right.

And I hope for two things - That I am forgiven and it is forgotten.  And that I don't do it again.

I am so sorry.  I will try harder to watch my words.