Perfect Timing?

They say "timing is everything," right?

Every time we have a trip to Wooster, I am tense. It isn't as nerve-wracking when the rest of the family is along, but when it is just the two of us, my nerves are brittle.

What happens then?  I cry. I get mad.  Everything anyone does or says is wrong. I am angry. I don't like it, but it happens.  I know why, and I just can't control it. The tension is there. Everyone should stay away from me.  Really.

The problem?  Memories.  Expected treatment. Apprehension.  Do I call or not?  Can I handle this without others to be buffers?  What if she lashes out at me again? Feelings of worthlessness. Being a bad daughter. Even though I expect it and I have adopted a "she can't hurt me any more" attitude, deep down inside I still dread a visit.

As we were driving along this morning, I read the daily devotion from Proverbs 31.  Even though I can handle the barbed remarks and the negativity plus all of the embellishments she adds to her stories, I need help with controlling my pre-visit anxiety.  Reading this helped.

Copying the link into today's blog post means I can readily find it again when I need the reminder.


http://us2.campaign-archive1.com/?u=f63562b3be485ea0ae33acf18&id=b12d4ac665&e=d3da1de501

Yes, "Timing is everything."  But "God's timing is perfect."