A Few Decisions

 I get myself bogged down with things sometimes---no big surprise there.  I often talk about those things with other people, including Gary and the girls.  No big surprise there either.  But one purpose of this trip was to get away from things, to focus on just us, or me, and relax, reflect, and refresh.  So I have made some decisions.

One, that I actually made before we left, is that I am not returning to Milestone Fitness.  I really like Megan the Trainer, and I appreciate what she has done for me.  But the cost is high, and I don't feel like I can really afford the monthly fees right now, especially when there are other things that are needed our financial support, like a new lawn mower.  Instead I must begin to work with my DVD collection on walking, focus on the exercises that Dr. Page gave me, and try to remember some of the things that Megan the Trainer did with me so I can continue some of that routine.  Another factor is that Gary mentioned wanting to return to some type of workout and suggested that we both start our membership in Firehouse Fitness in Rossville again.  We can go together and use the machines and the weights there.  As long as we are dedicated to that, it will work for both of us.

Reaching out to others.  I like to keep communication open with friends and family. However, I don't like to be the only one communicating.  We have invited friends to our new house several times and very rarely do they accept the invitations.  While I know people are busy and have family and friend obligations along with work responsibilities, I just don't like being the only one who wants to keep the friends relationship going.  The texting can go both ways.  FB messages can be initiated by either party.  Much as I want to keep the friendships solid and alive, I am tired of issuing invitations and receiving regrets.  The same thing applies to emails.  It doesn't take too long to send a quick text.  When I don't hear from someone for a long period of time, then my lines of communication are going to dry up too.  I truly believe the saying "If they really wanted to keep in touch, they would." 

Mom.  It seems like lately so many devotions have led my mind to thinking about Mom.  Then I write about a situation with her in my comments that I share with Rhonda.  She mentioned the other day that I open up more and more about situations with Mom and she thinks that is a good thing for me.  But in reality, it is the same stuff I talk about with Gary or the girls all the time.  She has been gone for over 4 years, so anything I share is 'old news,' not anything new.  Talking. or writing, about her just brings me down and depresses me.  So I need to stop.  Starting today my responses to devotions and scriptures will be without mention of Mom.  I can refer to teaching or the girls when they were younger, or anything else in my childhood---just not Mom.  I need to move on. It is more than past time to do that. The only way I can grow, the only way I can become more faithful and closer to God is to stop referring to her with every post I make. 

That's it for now!  Some soul searching.  Some thinking.  Some praying.  This is what I came up with.  And I feel good about it.